You know, there really is nothing quite like the sensation of getting bad news. There's this horrible moment where your breath catches, your heart races and that demon at the back of your mind tries to convince you that you didn't just hear that.
It could be anything... "you're not pregnant", "you're fired", "it's not working between us", "it's cancer", "those pants make you look like the back end of a bus".... bad is generally defined by the person receiving the news!
The problem is that when your breathing unfreezes, when the demon finally realises that you DID hear it, when your emotions catch up... that is when you feel that gentle crack. If it's really bad news, then the sensation could be just like a physical wound. It can debilitate you, leave you curled up in the famous foetal position. There's a surreal sensation that your cells may well fly off in different directions and then, of course, you struggle against it all and try to regain control. After all, there is no logic when emotion reigns.
There really isn't anything like getting bad news. I wish it could be a physical wound... something that people could see, so that they could judge how badly hurt you are. Although, I guess that that wouldn't work.... after all - how do you move on with gaping wounds for people to stare at, ask about and comment on? You don't. I guess that's why the good Lord - in his wisdom - made hearts that can break on the inside and dignity you can wear on the outside.
Who knows?
All I know is that not all BAD news is totally bad. When you've calmed down and you're over the initial shock and hurt, there can still be positives out there. So to those of you who are dealing with pain, issues and all the other stuff that we don't always talk about.... Remember that you are very much loved and nothing is totally insurmountable!
Until next time...
Love,
Me
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